Friday, October 12, 2007

She's Gone

My Aunt Donna passed on this morning.

HalleluYah, Father's will has been done! She is not in any more pain...there is no more infection...no more surgeries...no more procedures...no more doctors...and no more suffering.

You may recall my last post entitled "Letting Go" where I was struggling with the anticipation of this day. Well, it's here and I'm fine. In fact, I'm good. I've spent the past couple of hours recalling all of the good memories and the precious lessons she taught me. She lived her life exactly as she pleased and I know she didn't want to linger on life support the way that she did. It's over now and I'm relieved.

Though I'm sorry that she had to suffer, I'm thankful that we were given nearly 4 months to adjust to life without her and the possibility that she may never be here with us, in the same way as usual, again. In fact, at 3a this morning, I especially thanked Him for this period of adjustment and told Him that I think we're ready now. A meeting was planned for today to decide whether it was time to stop life support or not. Our family was divided over what to do. Thankfully, the Father took that decision out of our hands. Oh, praise Him!

Now I pray for peace in my family and that we can all work together as we go through the final arrangements and help her friends find closure (my aunt was not only loved by family, but had a TON of friends who were very attached to her). Please pray with me that His peace and His wisdom prevails through the next several days...that He will heal every heart and fill it with joy and praise.


~Free

4 comments:

Sicarii said...

Dear Free:

Please accept my deepest condolences. I am glad that your family and you are coping well.

The Lord bless you.

Love,

Your brother-in-Christ Isaiah

FreeIndeed said...

Isaiah,

Thank you so much, my friend.

It's really, really tough, but it's good at the same time. I spent most of Shabbat crying...just had to let it all out. On the one hand, I'm relieved she's out of her painful misery, but man oh man am I gonna miss her. She was my favorite aunt for 41 years and was a constant source of security in my life. No matter what came or went, I knew Aunt Donna was behind me all the way.

~Free

kathy byers said...

Again, Free, I am sorry to hear of your loss, but would like to praise YHWH with you that she is beyond suffering and that YHWH intervened and kept at bay any possible family strife over the major decision of life support or no life support. I pray you are having a blessed week this week. Shalom.

FreeIndeed said...

Hi Kathy,

Thanks for the kind words.

Things are pretty good over here, all things considered. We are blessed that Father took control of the situation and everyone's heart is now free to solely concentrate on worshiping Him for the blessings of relief, love and healing among other things. My aunt would be pleased to see how we're all handling it and she'd be especially honored by the memorial service that's taking place for her tomorrow. My sister has organized a very unique gathering that I know she'd love.

Take care and thanks, again, for stopping by and for your prayers, Kathy.

In Him,

Free